We always get choices in life. Many times we have more than two-three options available and at a given time we have to select only one. And choosing the correct one becomes extremely difficult. This selected option decides the further course of life, which decides on which path we will have to walk.

In such a selection game, we need to give priority to each option. Mind and heart start playing their roles. Both always stand on opposite edge. They are two sides of coins, even though being together they can not see each other as they always faces towards opposite direction.

Typically, mind listen outer world and directs to the path on which society wants to see us. Mind does not consider self satisfaction; it just follows the formula given by others and brings the desired output. Mind always tries to prove itself in front of others. It paints the picture the way world wants to see. It has nothing to do with emotions; it just wants to show off the world. It’s like wearing a mask of happiness because it suits to the other’s view and then getting suffocated in that mask.

Heart is just like first sun ray of the day which is unaware of what’s going to happen after one hour. It’s as fresh as a drop of monsoon’s first shower. It brings soft ripples of joy and directs towards the freedom. It’s simply a flow of river passing through all the hurdles but doesn’t get hurt by the sharp, acute edge of stones. It doesn’t like to get trapped in Golden Cage created by society. Heart is so innocent that it doesn’t put emotions in societal equations. Following heart means to be a free bird; free from all the criticism, fear, remarks, and sadness.

At the end, we need to decide whether to follow an existing path or to create our own path and make others to follow it; be a free bird or remain in a Golden Cage; be a river or a water of pond; see the world through borrowed vision or to enjoy own vision; Be a follower or a creator, choice is ours!

Lucky

Just before few days my Ocean told me that I am lucky I’ve got very good friends. I agreed. We meet many people in life, they come and go but some relations are eternal.

My friend Sangi! A name creates an image of smiling doll, a flowing river, soft ripple. She is a green leaf. I met her in Gurukul, she is my childhood friend. I miss those innocent fights. We were rivals in all the competitions but we were best friends also. She is very good singer and don’t talk about my singing, except my Ocean no one can tolerate me singingJ. We used to stand near window and dreamed for flying high in the open sky, to become career queen. Without knowing the bitter reality, we used to think of changing the world “Jukti hai duniya jukanewala chahie”, and the funny thing is that we were only ten years old at that time. But, even today we can see those dreams in each other’s eyes. She is doing well in her studies and working very hard for it in London, I’m proud of her and I have just stepped into the so called OFFICE LIFE. I miss those suppers and lunch which we had together in Gurukul. It was a golden period of my life. I can never forget the day when I got the news of my Jamsaheb (my MA) that she has left me forever, I gave first call to Sangi, we cried together and before I reach to home, she reached. Her hug made me feel that she is with me. The whole night we spent together. We remembered all those funny incidents which we had with Jamsaheb with tearful eyes. I never need to say “I need you”

My friend Isha with whom I keep roaming here and there on my Dio. We go to the Ram Dairy-an Ice cream parlor, our favorite spot. I don’t know why we like to be at Ram Dairy but we love to be there and enjoy Ice creams. Just before few days a group of youngsters (girls and guys) came there and she asked “had we dared to come like this in our college days?” I replied “Never” but we were happy by seeing them. Many times she asks why we need to have a boyfriend, we both are very Happy each other, by allowing guys in our life we are just creating troubles but I wish she may meet her Mr. Right very soon because I know once I’ll leave the city she will feel my absence deeply. I don’t understand why Isha and I are always together, we are very different. Even being an Advocate she has no career dream, while I have lot many heights to achieve. For her, marriage is an aim of life while for me marriage is a part of life and not an aim of life. We dress up totally differently. When we go for shopping we always pick up different things. She is very innocent; she has not seen the life out of the city and never wants to see. She is very good listener, whenever I get angry or I feel dull she listens peacefully. I never need to say “I need you”

CD, he is an amazing man, I really admire him. He teaches me how to be professional. I can say he has played an important role in making me patient otherwise I don’t know with how many colleagues I would have fought. I don’t know what is there in our relation, I’m 10 years younger than him but he never behaved like an elder. We are just friends, simply friends. From outside he is very tough but I know he is very emotional guy who even can cry. I’ve learnt many important lessons of life from him. I can not describe him in words; every word seems smaller in front of him. Everyday he takes my class and gets gussa on me that I’m not preparing enough for my SSB and I really like it as someone is there who really wants to see me in that White Uniform. He understands me so perfectly that I never need to say “I need you”.

Yes my Ocean I’m lucky that I have good friends and you are with me and have accepted me what I’m. Life doesn’t become rich with bank balance but we do need good people around us, who are our real strength.

Jamsaheb

Many incidents happen in our day-to-day life but we can not remember all of them or don’t give much importance. Few can stir our heart and awake us from deep silent sleep. Such incident of my life is related to my MA.

Every one loves mother and so I. I think I had always been TAKER and MA had been GIVER. Since my birth I kept asking for something and she never denied for anything. Her tenderness and unconditional love made me feel the princess in my own paradise. She never acted like mother but was my best friend; I could share everything with her.

It was very tough for me and MA to separate from each other but had no option I wanted to make my career and she wanted me to achieve greater heights in life. I left for Pune for M.B.A. With heavy heart I said bye to my MA. Everyday we were in touch through cell phone. She used to ask about breakfast, lunch and dinner and I kept complaining about the food and on phone many times she cried by worrying for me. We were planning her visit to Pune after my exams so we can spend quality time together.

It was the first internal paper of my M.B.A. As usual in the early morning I talked to MA, she asked about the breakfast and luckily I had taken Idaly so nothing was there to complain about. By hearing her voice I got the idea that she was ill. I asked her the reason and the reply was just not feeling well, might have viral fever but will get well soon. I asked for her blessings. She said “You will get everything you want; the world is yours, beta my blessings are always with you”. For few minutes I felt something different, could not concentrate and was feeling like something is there behind her words. I still can feel those words with her voice and tone.

The next day I got the news she had left me forever. It shocked my senses; I could not speak and could not react. Just my tears were expressing my pain. Suddenly I lost my paradise, I lost my MA. I had lost the title of princess. All the unsaid promises remained in darkness; all the said things vanished in air. The world has changed for me. Words from relatives were pinching me like needle. Her words were floating in my eyes “You will get everything you want; the world is yours, beta my blessings are always with you”.

Shortly, life went back on track and started concentrating on career by thinking that just fulfills her dream for me of becoming a Career Queen. But still that feeling of taker is not leaving me. It’s putting me in terrible situation that I could not give her anything. I wanted to do many things for her but never got the opportunity. I have never spoken to her about all those things which I wanted to give her. She made me princess but I wanted to make her Queen which I could not do. I am feeling deep guilty for all those things. During our last talk also she gave me everything by her blessings. Even at the end I remained TAKER.