Just for a Moment

Whatever we do we do it for some special moment only. This special moment is a moment of appreciation, achievement, satisfaction, love, care.

We keep studying hard and every year we try to achieve more. This whole hearted hard work is just to feel an achievement for a moment. Mother cares for a child just to make her feel secured and when child is learning to walk it knows mother is there to give hands and this is a special moment for both child and mother, they both can feel a special moment when child falls and mother holds her in her arms. A man holds her wife’s hand without speaking a word but they can feel love and feeling of oneness in a special moment. We give food to poor not to do some charity work but it’s a special moment when the feeling of satisfaction can be seen in his eyes after having food. When one listens “Love you” spoken by from someone’s deep heart, it becomes a special moment of wining the whole world. When one says that “I’m always with you”, for a moment it can be felt that everyone is by my side and I can do everything. When husband says “you are very beautiful”, it makes special moment for his wife as for a moment she feels she is Cleopatra.

We live for all these moments. We make our world by these special moments. Everything joy, sorrow, love, care, satisfaction, achievement lies in these moments. We carve our path with all these moments which are unforgettable memories.

I want to make my world by bringing smile on my friends’ face, by being always by their side. I want to become the reason of this special moment in my surrounding. I may not achieve visible success in this world but I want to achieve happiness in other’s life because of me. I want to do all these Just for a Moment when I’ll die I want to feel it as the most precious moment of my life.

I'm Good

I take firm decision. I don’t know this is good quality or not. Ocean says I should keep two options always, he might be right but I never do it in my personal life. I believe in doing with determination. Whatever I do I give my best to it and I always get the expected result and sometimes more than expectations. For the first time I failed, I am not taking it professionally because to get in Navy was not a career option like other jobs. It was my passion to do something for country. I know there are other better ways to serve the nation but I believe by being in armed forces I could be in the front row. I always wanted to do something different about which a common girl has never thought. It was craziest desire to wear white uniform with golden stripes on shoulder and a name tag along with the rank.

I don’t understand how one can think for another option before getting the result. I do things by believing that I’ve got only one chance in life to do it and later on I should not have any regret that I didn’t give my best. So I do it as I’m dying and this is the best thing I can do in end moments. But I have regret for Navy because someone did not allow me for it and how could I give up for my dreams, I was very stupid that I had believed it and missed my chance. When I awaken it became too late. But now I have no option other than accepting the reality.

I was thinking that Defense needs smart and good person with high moral values. When I failed, initial thought came in my mind was that I am not a good person but then I analyzed myself and I found by not getting in, in Indian Navy does not mean that I am not a good person. I am still a good person, I try not to hurt anyone, I care for my friends, I am honest, I have guts to accept my mistakes. I do charity work which I don’t need to tell every one that see I am doing such a great work. If I keep saying all these means I am doing for show off and which is not my interest. I do it because I am really concerned for it and I think if my little help can make someone’s life better than it’s my true earning of life. Earning of self satisfaction which is very important because one should feel relaxed and joyous by own actions. If I’m not happy with my doing then there is no meaning of doing it. Success doesn’t mean money or fame. If self is satisfied, it is an achievement.

For the first time I felt discrimination of being a small town girl in SSB. Earlier I could not realize it but now day by day I’m learning from SSB. In interview he asked me other than my city how many other cities I have visited. This means he wanted to know whether I’m truly small town girl. Later when I replied the reason for my fitness that I go for my little jog every morning, sarcastically he asked Oh is there any place for jogging in your city? what is this? does he mean that a small town girl can not do anything? It’s wrong; he might have forgotten that Gandhiji, Dyanand Srswati, Sardar Vallbh bhai, APJ Kalam belong to a small town. In many questions he made me felt that I’m from small town and from business background which means I’m not suitable for armed forces but I think this is unfair. It’s the person’s quality which makes him/her suitable to a particular work but finally he gave preference to all of those girls who were from Defense Background.

Mission Accomplished

It was the day for which I was waiting eagerly; I landed in Bangalore with high expectation, enthusiasm, and great hope of achieving my goal of becoming a Naval Officer. I was waiting to see that feeling of conquer in my father’s eyes and proud for me by seeing me in Naval Officer’s White Uniform; just one special moment to have some rank with my name and golden stripes on my shoulder drove me crazy always.

Main headache was “Screen In” as I know that I am not intelligent but I am average and my Non Verbal reasoning is not that much good but fortunately I screened In. Out of 99 we 40 girls screened In. Fun days started here, it was like my Gurukul Days had come back. I don’t remember how Neha, Karuna, Rachita and I became friends but those were fantastic moments to be together. Neha very sweet girl, Karuna always in Laughing Mode and Rachita very thoughtful girl and we are good friends. I never knew that on most awaiting days I would meet most memorable friends in such a strange way. We shared all the funny moments and our experiences of Ground tasks. Even though we were in different groups, experiences were same. Especially in snake race we forgot that we are girls and climbed all the obstacles by taking our group members together. It was a great experience of working in group.

After all those sweet days, a day came - Conference Day. The Day of Judgment (Judgment of our attitude, personality) the day of result the day which had decided our path and the day which brought smile on few faces and tears in some eyes. We all dressed well for Conference and took our luggage to assemble at reception. One by one we attended our conference like facing some strong winds of questions and anyhow we tried to climb those mountains. Finally result declared by a Lady Officer and we all came in blues. Suddenly fun turned in sorrow. It was like we were broken pieces of glass lying carelessly on road, a dried leaf of tree just going in the direction of winds rather than facing it, a drop of water on plain surface and disappeared within a second due to sun heat, a cuticle which was removed brutally.

After 8 days, still the thought is not leaving me, in my dreams also I’m grudging. Initially there was no hope left and felt like life had ended but oxygen is there in air to breath and yet my heart is able to pump the blood in my body, water is there to drink and so life has to go on. I’m trying to come back on routine State Highway No. 25 journey which I hated the most, feeling clumsy in this uniform which I thought would never wear again after my Bangalore trip and adjusting amongst Second Handers.

I received an email from Nilu stating Thought for the day “Always pick up something, whenever you fall”. And I went back to my first professional failure; I recollected all the memories by burying died seeds. I realized it was fantastic and adventurous experience. The most important thing is that I got good friends with whom I built a museum of sweetest memories and floated a Tear River on their shoulder. Those were the days which gifted me love, care and relations for the life time. All these I can never purchase by being professional purchaser but Almighty gave great opportunity to rejoice and my Gurukul days. It was the most memorable period of my life. I would say I accomplished my Mission, I achieved Success.