The moment you accept yourself, you become beautiful!

   I was just flipping through the images saved in my tablet and saw this wonderful line of Osho " The moment you accept yourself, you become Beautiful". It's so true. It's just that in this fast forward and show off culture, we have lost our identity. We just focus on things which others expect us to do and run after them but somewhere inside all of us there is an amazing world which is very different from this outer croud.It's like we have forgotten what we are but I think eyes twinkle when we are HAPPY and we must know what makes us happy.
   Accepting self means search and live as we want to be, it's a journey to reach to self. Croud wants us to make money, yes I do accept that money is a basic need but it should not be the only need. Money can not buy everything. It just can give material stuffs.But there are lot many things to do in life. God has made this earth very beautiful and worth living. There are songs of river and waterfalls to listen, there are green pastures to walk on with loved ones, there are colour filled evening and sparkling sun rise to watch silently. Why should we miss all these? I feel that all these reflect me when I get in tune with them.
  Journey of this life is incomplete if we can not see our inner beauty and this beauty starts flowering when we do what we love. In doing so croud may criticise but the real charm of this life can be felt when everyone says concentrate on earning but we go for balancing between both,earning and flowing with the river of heart. Each moment of life should be a rhythemic tune, each moment should be celebration because our beingness here has some meaning at leat for us. Then why should only exist and not living? Croud will criticise no matter what we are, it just looks for it's own comfort. So, let's accept ourself and become BeAUtiFuL!

Without you my world is empty Maa!!!

Dedicated to my MAA on my 26th B'day i.e. on 29/09/2010.

Mane fari farine eno saad sambhalay,
"Mari Vhali" eva ven sambhalay;

Halva Halva ena sparsh ma mane,
Paramtatva ni anubhuti thay;

Khal khal thata ena hasyama mane,
Nijmast anand ni anubhuti thay;

Eni bhini bhini ankho ma mane,
Mari vyatha no chitar vartay;

Pan, eni antim kshano ni ashao,
Vali valine shwasma rundhay!

Sorry friends who can't understand Gujarati but I can't write poem in English.

Then I’m an Atheist!

Yesterday very strange thing happened in front of me. During lunch, one girl came and she served herself with the entire foods available, full dish she took 3 chapatis, 2 sabjis, rice, dal and added items which she brought from home. After having, half chapati she remembered that it was her fast on the occasion of Ekadashi so she left the plate. I stunned, she forgot about her fast so she wasted the FOOD because it was against the religion! This means in the name of religion one can waste the food while millions of people sleep hungry. And excuse me after having full breakfast and having little on lunch what was the meaning of remaining hungry and more than that wastage of full dish and what about she took the food in which hunger of two kids could be satisfied. I don’t understand these religion matters, what is greater humanity or religion practices which has got no rationality? I’m not against of anyone’s faith in religion, because our culture has built on great values of religion virtues, it builds the fountain of faith within us and that’s what gives us strength to fight the odds. But, I’m against of blindly following religion practices.


Now, my point is that if when 77% of India’s population does not get enough food and due to hunger child mortality ratio is even higher than some sub-Saharan countries, in such a situation rather than thanking God for his kindness that we have got basics to survive, we insult the human values by doing such things. It may seems very small matter but nooo…. according to me, this shows the picture of our society where human has got no values. We say we are most spiritual race in this world but I think we are the people who believe in show off. Such things are proof that we don’t respect the human dignity and spirituality starts by respecting the human values and not in following such ridiculous things. Spirituality means enlightenment, and how can we be enlighten without being compassionate towards the deprived. Even Bhagvad Geeta has taught us the secrets of Karma, don’t we believe in it? If not then we can’t be said religious. Then what practices we are following? Are these religion codes??? Nooooo, it’s only show off, it’s just to show that see people… I’m religious. If you believe this is the religion then I’m an Atheist!

Red Letter Box

My eyes twinkled by seeing a Red Letter Box of Indian Post Office. It had been years I used it or I can say no one has used it for me also since years. In the era of information and media revolution days are gone when we used to wait for a letter from our dear ones. Such emotions motivated Pannalal Patel, a renowned Gujarati Laureate, to write one of the word’s best short stories “Post Office” characters of which were Mariam and Ali (father-daughter duo) and which we all have studied in school days.

My connection with this red box is also very intimate. In my Gurukul days my illiterate mother wrote me letters regularly. She knew that I wait for her letter every week and she never disappointed me. She was one of the unfortunate ladies of India who has not got the Akshar Gyan, but this never hindered in her regularity to write me letters. Every week she used to go to a neighbor by taking pen and yellow postcard and ask them to pen down her love for me, if someone was busy then she had to go to another person. So, I never received letter written by my mother but I always received her care and love embedded on those postcards. At that time I didn’t understand her much but today I can visualize how she had to plead someone to write me a letter. And I trust my Jamsaheb’s feelings were greater than those words. I don’t have those letters today but I still remember the contents. As winter is going on it reminds that she used to write “beta please wear sweater and don’t worry washing of Uniforms (we had white kurta payjama as winter uniform and I still have them) everyday, I’ll bring more for you. Please have proper meals otherwise you will fall ill, apply vicks near your nose regularly and I want to see you like tamatar when next time I’ll come to see you (we were allowed to see our parents twice in one term for 2-3 hours on predecided days) also let me know anything special you want to eat I’ll get them for you, all your favourite dishes will come.” All these sweet memories started popping up in my mind when I saw that red box.

My father never wrote me even a single letter during my six years in Gurukul, I still feel regret about it. People neglect small things in life but life is made up of small things and if we miss them then gap in relations keep widening.

Finally how can I forget my all sweet friend’s letters especially from Sangi and still I have these letters. Innocence love and dreams to touch the sky and one of the finest writings which can make them Laureates are with me and I love to read them.

I always knew that I am very short tempered like my father but I used to think that I am what I am. But I had to turn to see the other side of the coin; after all one side can not bring the balance. I thought to become patient, bring calmness in my nature and think thousand times before reacting on any matter. This was not necessary only for me but also not to hurt my loved ones. Expressions play very important role in gesture because they leave impression.

My father is a great fan of Shree Rajnish and my mother believed in all God and Godess without drawing religious line. So since my early childhood I had not learned any particular religious pacts to follow. Being grown up in Gurukul, I am a firm believer of Shrimad Bhagvad Gita. I am not saying that I am a master of its philosophy but yes I learnt few aspects of life since my gurukul days on the path of Gita. Life is been destined by two way journey: one towards self and another towards world. One has to see the beauties on both the ways. I thought to let my conscious grow. I thought to read something on Buddha and I asked my father whether he had anyone. Obviously he had and suggested me to read very very big versions of “Eso Dhamo Sanatano” by Osho depicted on Buddhism. By seeing the size I found excuses. Later on I thought on Buddhism, to reach the self they boycott all the material aspects but in my opinion how one can leave the things without holding the same. So it is very necessary to hold to leave it and hence one has to indulge in materialism to become aware of self.

Final destiny is to attainment of conscious. It’s not important which path we walk on but it is more important how is the journey and enlightenment during the journey. So I thought not to indulge in any particular way or say not to follow a specific religion, the real thing is to become moral and that I can not achieve by deciding what is good or what is bad, but the point is to become conscious of all actions and to crush the ego and not to believe in worldly words. Finally I realized this is the path I used to follow but I just need to be more conscious which somewhere I had lost and so all the problems started popping up and so I need to go back on my way of Spirituality, I don’t need to become religious.

At each stage of life we learn something new. Life is all about learning, whether it’s something good or something which we never want. In all the cases, we conclude “I learnt something from it.”

My best friend Sangi has taught me lots many things. Relation with her is something different, physically we are very far but miles have never affected our feelings. We have kept us alive by giggling on those sweet memories of life. Our fights in childhood can never be forgotten. Its how two most hatred enemies become BEST FRIENDS, makes our relation remarkably special. I never need to say that I need you Sangi because she always remained with me. She always listen me patiently and more than my words she understands my silence. She always knows what I am going through, what I am thinking and what I want to do. My life is open book to her and she has read all the pages carefully and many times answered the WH questions of those torn-new pages.

After leaving so called high profile job and especially by not accepting the transfer I am having difficult time as far as financial matter is concerned. One day I got a call from Sangi as always we had long talks, I explained how I was upset on little piece of cloth. I liked one skirt. I always bought what I liked. I never restrained my life from the things which I like. I indulge in my wishes and enjoy material aspects with spiritual aspects of life. But that skirt is where my eyes were stuck on but spending of Rs. 500 is what my bank account would cry on. So I kept my eyes on other things which I didn’t like and I didn’t buy anything. But this is not my attitude, once I like something I want to have it anyhow. I wanted to look gorgeous on that skirt. But Books of my studies are so costly that I had no option than to left thinking of that one meter cloth. I washed out my feelings to Sangi and she simply taught me how to control feelings in such situation. She said see you have enjoyed everything and you have everything but in life self discipline is very important how one small thing can trap your attention, be free from everything and don’t get trapped in something which will bide you. I got her words and understood.

She told me about her situation what she is going through. I understand how she is struggling in London; it’s not easy to conquer the battle on alien’s land. But there is a huge gap between understanding and experiencing. When she said “I have only 15 bucks in my account” and other related things. It cut my throat and words could not come out. I felt terrible insecurity for her and wish I could be there with her.

On my birthday I got a call from her and she said she wanted to buy a handbag for me. First I said NO but she convinced me. She enjoys in giving. Since my childhood I have seen she feels happy when she gives something to someone. Once she said it’s very easy to give gifts but true gifting is when you give someone your favorite things. I cultivated Giving Habit from her. She is truly fabulous person and I am lucky to be her friend. This is not about the material things. Material things have nill importance in relations but this is something about how to share our precious things with our loved ones.

Fantastic Free

I’m amazed how we all enjoy the things called free even though we are aware that it’s not free at all, there is always hidden cost. After all no one would run business in loss. It’s so funny to believe in all these Fantastic Free Fundas.

One day such free funda electrified my mind when I realized that I am investing my 4-5 days’ salary on communication media. It was out of my defense budget so I thought let me cover the distance between Jamnagar and Cochin as I really didn’t want to “Karlo Duniya Mutthi Me” and I got the new connection of so called free scheme from Gujarati Managed Business House. Later on network expanded in free to Bhubneswar and even in Jamnagar and sometimes towards Nagpur and finally Cochin got replaced by Port Blair. So I had controlled Whole India in my Cell Phone which covers geographically world’s 16% area so I was Happy that my free ka funda was worth investing. At the sametime my ears must be asking for mercy from me and about which I didn’t care. Finally Service provider had showered their blessings on my ears and said Tathastu to free scheme on very auspicious day of Rakshabandhan, Hayeeeeeee Free ka Bandhan tut gayyyyyyyyya. Yes, one more like this, only at the end of advertise they simply say “Take Care” I don’t understand for what they advise us to take care, from side effects of their highly marketed products?????? Like hair fall in free with purchase of shampoo or fairness in free with cream which contains acids and burns our face hair to shine and we feel yesssssssss I have become fairer. More than this, to create a feeling of Apnapan in free they use desi words like “Apna Khayal Rakhna” from the mouth of videshi models.

This was something market related free scheme but what about in real life. What would one boyfriend get in free along with the new title BoYFriEnD? Let me guesssssssss. Oh so called emotional wordssssssss “Honey I miss you like anything” and some nicknames which he had never expected before, of course how can he expect him to be a Gadha or Popat??? Always his cell phone beeps when he is too busy with his high profile job and when he checks the message all the free words (few words must have been chewed by rats on the way as she always writes in short forms) are written like it has been written in Upnishadas and at this situation he must be feeling like a character of Kalidas’ famous poem MEGHDUT on which clouds pours her soul mate’s (yeaaaaah they can not tolerate each other even for a dinner but they think they are SoUlmAte ) message. Sometimes unnecessarily he has to wish her girlfriend’s friends on their so called special occasions, even if he forgets his friend’s occasions but he can’t of his girlfriend’s…….. And yes if he doesn’t receive her call then ohhhhhhhhhhhh he has to face the world’s greatest script writer’s dialogues from her and I think all prime time serials are using these dialogues in free.

One day I heard two ladies gossiping, one was saying today finally I’m going to tell my bahu “see now it’s enough, you both have taken enough time, now I want to have grand children (mind it well its Plural not singular), before I take last breath I want to play with them (senti + mental sentence along with hope to live upto her century in free)” I thought to interrupt and tell her”OOO hellllllllooo, marriage is not a license to get kids in free and it costs lot to the country like India which is going to overtake China in 2050 in population terms”. But I left quietly because my free advice could cost lots of hatred from other people also in free to me. Enjoy all the Fantastic Free Fundas around you which you would get in frrrrrrrrreeeeeeeee.